The clock is ticking~

*wondering*
The clock is ticking. but I'm still living in doubt. Thought it wud get better.But it wasn't. It content to grew in me and the great feelings I had before is slipping away~~. I wonder "Is this what I really want?" a few seconds after that. " Ok, things will get better anyhow. Soon..perhaps any day from now. I wil keep it together and focus...stay focus this time!"
*dreaming*
I wish I have a remote control where I could just switch everything. From sorrows to happiness, disappointment to joy, regrets to relieve, depression to bliss..but what would happen if we really own it?life could be more miserable....I guess... Maybe that is why God doesn't want it to.Hmm...LIFE.
*back to reality*
Ok!The clock is ticking..I can't pause the time. I can't change my past. I can't change people. I can't change the world. I need to decide...I'm so indecisive now. A or B? there is no U- turn. The question keeps haunting me "What if.....?" ......I am still searching my inner strength...finding ways for true happiness....My heart says a lil' prayer " God, please guide me. Show me the right path. Lead me as I am lost now. Keep the faith in me. ".