Moving Forward --->

As time passes by...
I am beginning to understand the facts and fakes of life
I used to grumble, crying and nagging day and night for things that could not get through into my thick head.
What I saw was darkness, hatred and anger...I was a bewildered person.
Being INDECISIVE was another kind of disease that I never understood!
It just happened to be in my nerves and den-droids that I failed to overcome every time I wanted to decide SOMETHING.

BUT...after a while, i learn that problems will never be solved unless you went to through it with faith,love and hope. Along the way, I understood that there will be discomforts here and there...but it was only a process of healing until you are strong enough to face challenges and be ready to live the present.

I cried a lot....but I knew it didnt bring me any changes. SO I crawl...and I walk....I jump ...and finally I tried to fly...The feelings of succeeding in walking,conquering and solving through all the difficulties,fear,failures in life (instead of giving up) was so energizing and uplifting~!You never knew how strong you were until you experienced it yourself.

I have let go my past..live the present and moving forward to my future.
I am alive..and still living and loving my life every single bit~!

I thank o God for the strength ..I thank to the person who make me understood ...:)

Dear Mother

Dear Mother,
Why are you doing this to me?
Why mother...Why...
I was trying to pleased you..so you'll be proud of me..
But why mother...why are you doing this to me?
I am beginning to trust you...learning how to talk to you..
but Why are you doing this to me mother??
I wish we could talk like what a mother daughter used to be..
I wish you will serve me with a loving hug everytime I'm back home..
I wish you can learn to say Sorry..forgive me..So I will cherish with your words..
I wish that you could trust me with whatever decisions I made..


my feelings are torning apart...n I'm even more confused than you are now..coz u made me to become one....